Recently, I met a friend of my husband’s. To my surprise, he was someone I had been romantically involved with before. Our affair lasted from 2013 until late 2014, after which we ended things. In 2015, I met my husband, and we got married in November 2016 after discovering I was pregnant with our first child.
During this recent encounter, we acted as if we had never met before, as I feared my husband might not react well if he knew about our past. We pretended it was our first meeting and moved on from it.
However, after that meeting, he reached out to me through Facebook. We exchanged contact information and began communicating. He told me he had missed me and had been searching for me, expressing a strong desire to rekindle our relationship. Despite being 37 and still single, I made it clear that I was not interested, especially because I was now married to his friend and had children.
Initially, he accepted my decision, but he continued to pressure me. Eventually, I agreed to meet him again, and despite my better judgment, I ended up being intimate with him. This was the first time I had acted unfaithfully to my husband. I felt tremendous guilt and regretted what had happened. I told him I disliked the situation and asked him to stay away.
Despite my resolve, I found myself increasingly weak in the face of his pleas. We ended up being intimate again on a few more occasions. I felt remorseful each day, but it was as if I couldn’t resist him whenever we were together.
Now, I’m pregnant with his child. My husband is aware of the pregnancy, but he believes it is his. Although we had decided not to have more children, he has asked me to keep the baby. I feel that having this child could jeopardize my marriage and tarnish my reputation. I am deeply conflicted and want to resolve this situation, but I am unsure how to proceed.
I would greatly appreciate your honest advice on this matter. I am feeling overwhelmed and confused.
